Bit nervous and excited!

Hello all!

Getting to type from the computer is a luxury! I enjoyed it so much last time i posted, that i haven't blogged from the phone again sorry. Does mean a bigger break between posts though... oops!

So, nervous and excited! Last week i had a shocking day. Just one of those hard ones where every little thing piles on top of another - and so i came to a choice point. What to do now. Do i run to facebook and try to feel better there? Or the fridge? Or 'phone a friend' - instead i came to the Lord. I really want Him to be my comfort and trying to do this more.

And, it was definitely the best thing to do :-)

I found myself crying to Him and seeking comfort from Him - and suddenly these words started flowing, and rhyming, and coming together... wow. Grabbing pen n paper - i proceeded to scribble out pages and pages of what happened to me and what i was going through. No idea why i wrote it and what for.

Very long story short - God was in the mixing and I find myself now nervous, as Kristy is about to share this poem online, for 100's and 1000's of other mums to see it. Woah.

A couple of days after the poem was written, i spoke to Kristy and she offered me a place on her 'Imperfect Mum' site - for 'God sh*t' she said. (I love her and her honesty!) We laughed and both promised to come up with a better name for it.

But her heart is gold. She knows how many mums out there are hurting, and wants to help them. And she thinks that i have something that could help. (little may she realise HE is the ONLY help! But she'll get there ;-) tee he he!) She said she just woke the other morning, and i came to her mind and she knew that she had to ask me to share. Crazy cool huh?

And so, she's posting the poem soon. Every time i commute with her about it, or send her bits about it, i keep fearing she's gonna soon go 'no no no, too much God stuff in it - tone it down a tad' but she's yet to say this. In fact, she even emailed and asked if there were any photos i wanted to add?!? AND if im ready to post a link to THIS little blog too?!?!?

God, you are amazing!

Isaiah 55 comes to mind...

Is anyone thirsty? Come and drink — even if you have no money! Come, take your choice of wine or milk— it’s all free! Why spend your money on food that does not give you strength? Why pay for food that does you no good? Listen to me, and you will eat what is good. You will enjoy the finest food.

“Come to me with your ears wide open. Listen, and you will find life. I will make an everlasting covenant with you. I will give you all the unfailing love I promised to David. See how I used him to display my power among the peoples. I made him a leader among the nations.

You also will command nations you do not know, and peoples unknown to you will come running to obey,because I, the Lord your God,the Holy One of Israel, have made you glorious.”

Seek the Lord while you can find him. Call on him now while he is near. Let the wicked change their ways and banish the very thought of doing wrong. Let them turn to the Lord that he may have mercy on them. Yes, turn to our God, for he will forgive generously.

“My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the Lord. “And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine.For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.

“The rain and snow come down from the heavens and stay on the ground to water the earth.
They cause the grain to grow, producing seed for the farmer and bread for the hungry.

It is the same with my word. I send it out, and it always produces fruit. It will accomplish all I want it to, and it will prosper everywhere I send it.

...and it goes on.

Father, may this poem bring YOU glory. May You use it where You want to. Even if it comes to nothing and seems like a flop in the worlds standards - it already means so much to me and i thank You for teaching me truthful lessons that day. You are the true comfort. Thank You.

Blessed to be a signpost....

xK