Nasty Kelly.... Don't call in the morning or you may meet her!

I was having a very cruddy morning!!

Kids all going crazy, husband off to work early leaving me to chaos solo, female stuff, house is a mess, tired from being up too late last night, out of cereal and we're racing the clock... Perfect ingredients to make a disaster!

Then i get a phonecall from a friend in the middle of it all! I was feeding bub at the time, and REALLY didn't want to stop what i was doing - but of course she wanted to talk to me.

She apologized for interrupting such a busy time of the morning (Well, why did you?? My head said) I will be quick (text would of been quicker i thought...) Just wanted to let you know i can take my child to school today so you don't need to rush to get here in time before school... (We've been collecting her daughter while their car is being fixed)

"Ok, cool" I said quickly, rudely, abruptly and regretted as soon as it left my lips.

"So... How have you been?" She said, obviously noticing my short fused response and frazzled tone perhaps??

"I'm sorry but i can't talk now sorry matey. It's crazy here and i need to keep up with it"

"Sure, no worries, we can talk later" and that was it.

-- I was thankful she was so understanding. I love friends who are tough and can take an honest response without me worrying if i've left them crying on the other end. These people i consider my close friends.

But that doesn't make what i did right.

"Look after each other so that none of you fails to receive the grace of God. Watch out that no poisonous root of bitterness grows up to trouble you, corrupting many."

Oh, that bitter root was there! and it certainly troubled me. It can then pass onto the child i raise my voice at to get ready faster, or the mum at school i don't talk to because I'm in a bitter mood. Or my friend on the phone, who has tasted my bitterness and may pass it onto whoever she meets. Or the children my children then come in contact with. My attitude has an amazing ripple effect... You know how your day can be ruined by one nasty tongued person??

But faking it doesn't work either. People can smell a fake a long way off. Especially children!

So after school drop off and back home again, giving up the plans i had made - i came to the Father, humbled, realising i needed to spend time with Him instead. He can heal me. He knows me better than anyone else, even myself.

"Think of all the hostility he endured from sinful people; then you won’t become weary and give up." To the cross. To the cross. I find myself at the cross again, and i am refreshed and realigned. Thank You for your unfailing love my Father. Thank You for Your discipline.

I then went on to apologise to my friend (who said she didn't even notice! Good to see i can still hide my sin :-s ha ha. Jokes!!) and seek her forgiveness. People are too precious and Christ paid too much for these things to remain unresolved...

"As you endure this divine discipline, remember that God is treating you as his own children. Who ever heard of a child who is never disciplined by its father?"

My Father loves me SO much!

xK